Friday, August 13, 2010

soothing song for Ramadhan.


Do listen to this song. It is so soothing. Listen to the acoustic version. This is just its temporary video link. I will post the real one soon. Adik, listen to this. No excuse!!!!!

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Thank You Allah Lyrics
By: Maher Zain

I was so far from you
Yet to me you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.
I never thought about
All the things you have given to me
I never thanked you once
I was too proud to see the truth
And prostrate to you
Until I took the first step
And that’s when you opened the doors for me
Now Allah, I realized what I was missing
By being far from you.
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.
Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
And did you give me hope
O Allah, I wanna thank you
I wanna thank You for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
I wanna thank You for bringing me home
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

the bizzare case Of chicken pox

Salam. It is finally here. Ramadhan. Yes. I feel more relax and enjoying the trueness of fasting. Yup! Indeed.

Well, there have been so many things I want to post here, just that I am not sure whether on not I have got the time to write. Let me start with chicken pox. Hoho.

Chicken pox

Last 3 weeks, when I was in Bukit Hijau (for a tiring and troublesome English Camp), I received some smses from my lil bro. From the smses I got to now that something was not OK. He kept on asking when I will be out of the 'jungle'. I could sense something bad was on. The line there, in the jungle, was so terrible. I had to find the right spot just to send 1 sms. My bro, however, received several smses from me, I mean the same sms but several times. So I guess, celcom was 'razorblading' me for that.

My bro asked me several times about my stay there at that jungle. I know him every well, if he wants to ask something, his mukaddimah would be long and winding. Only then he would spill out his intention. So being him, the normal him, I can sense, he wanted to ask something. And finally, I got an sms from him telling me that he had been diagnosed with chicken pox. Gosh! there was no other word that I could say, just that, "take a bus home immediately!"

I had chicken pox before and I know it is kind of tedious work just to have one. First of all there would be so many no-nos. Among them would include
B)DO NOT EXPOSE YOURSELF TO RAIN ( actually I have 1 big scar on my chest because of this. A rain fell onto my chest, and the chicken pox had become big, and now the scar is like somebody who has had an operation before. I used to brag about this scar by saying that " I was shot, and the bullet stuck here. But I survived" hehe)
C) DONT LOOK INTO MIRROR. if not the 'poxes' would become shy and they would 'drown' themselves back.
but the most ridiculous of all....
F) DO NOT LET CHICKEN SEE YOU. what? What is the rationale behind this? I xknow. hehe

... then on Sunday, after coming out from the jungle, I went to fetch my bro at Bworth bus station. Yes.. I was kind of shocked to see him. His face was full of 'spots'. I dared not say much. But there was no smile at all on his face. So, obviously he was not enjoying himself at all, well who would.

It was drizzling. I was worried to see him walk in the drizzle, I was trying to get an umbrella, but it was to late, he walked rather fast. He entered the car, and no word came out from his mouth. He didn't even shake my hand. So, to play save, I held my tongue.

I have got some experience in taking care of chicken pox patient before. My late mom had chicken pox just a few months before she left us. So, I took care of her for several days. But hers was not as bad as my bro's. We are talking about big poxes here. But, I didn't mind. All I know, I must help him recover since ramadhan is getting near, and he needs to go back to seremban to continue with his study. With that condition, I didnt think it would be the best for him to stay at his hostel. Knowing him, he would not ask help from people. So, with that pox, I didnt think he would be asking his roommate to go out and buy food for him. So, that was why I ORDERED him to come home. And thank god, he did!

In helping him to recover, the main thing that I must focus on was his food. To ensure that he got 'permissible' food, I cooked for him. haha. Just imagine. for two weeks I cooked at home. And now, I do think that I have become a good cook. He could not eat well since he got poxes on his inner throat. So, he had to take porridge and soft food (just like a baby) wuhuhu.. After a few days, no more porridge for him. After nearly two weeks, he finally got better and last Sunday, he went back to seremban. there goes the pox guy! haha.

What I learn from this experience:

Not just learning to become a good cook (ahem ahem) I also learn to be patient. It is not easy though to juggle between work and household chores. I had to go to work, then ran home, cooked, then this and that. Luckily he managed to do all the things oh his own. If he is a small kid, I was pretty sure to die. At nights, he couldn't sleep. There would be numerous time, I woke out finding him using neem leaves to ease the itchiness that he had. Pity him. If he is a small boy, I m pretty sure he would be crying!. It also helped me to be more responsible. All this while, all that I care (well most of the time) would be myself. From the experience, I help myself to be more reliable. Taking care of sick person is not easy. There were several times I was badly hurt (I mean, emotionally, but I do hope it was not done intentionally. If yes.. SCREW YOU BRO!!), but come to think about it as a test for my patience, so I managed to get along with it. But for those out there, please... DO NOT USE SWEAR WORDS! It DOES NOT feel good at all!

After this chicken pox thingy, I m reevaluating myself. Can I be a good brother? Husband? Father? Am I ready to face all the responsibilities that are waiting for me ahead? Do I have what it takes to be a responsible person? How good would I be in handling others? but on top of all, AM I QUALIFIED TO HOLD ALL THOSE TITLES?

I m still asking myself the question.

Thanks to all my friends that had helped in giving information this and that. It feels really bad when there is no mom around to provide you with all the info when you need them. So I do miss my mom, her appearance, a lot. But, she did a very good job. Because of her I know all the things that I know now. So thank you MAK for all the things that you showed me, and taught me. You will always be the QUEEN OF MY HEART.

So bro... get 100% well soon, so that you can enjoy your satay for this coming Raya. Don't worry so much about those scars as they will disappear, sooner or later. Thanks for believing in me, and thanks for giving me the chance to experience how to handle chicken pox patient. Sorry, if I didn't manage to cater your taste buds and didn't be the best 'nurse' in taking care of you.

All in all, thanks bro..