Sunday, August 28, 2011

I can now online non-stop!... weeeee!!!!

I was 'away' offline for too long! My lappy is not that ok. He is old and weary! But i still need him when I need to do some hardcore design and office works. Anyway... to make me online more, and to make my life mo flexi... I have treated myself with.....

tadaaaa.....

hehe! Chomeyyyyyy ah! Have been using it for a week. i havent ventured it that much, but Miss tabby doesnt dissappoint me! O' love! I have now have a new toy to play with!


2011 is a year of new things. gadgets etc. So.. I can wait what more change will I face or do! Anyway.... i m still the same ol me. The caring, pasionnate and loving person. Just that I have added some new flavours to my 'self''. Another BIG change is coming over... just wait.. or maybe I can say 3 BIG CHANGES will take their place. hoho.


Overal, Samsung Galaxy Tab is awesome! No regrets in buying it. Sorry Ipad2. I think you lost it for now!


Ps: These are all the MIsses in my life


a) Miss V


b) Missy V


C) Cik Non


d) MIss Tabby


e) Miss Mooo


f) Miss Delly

Sunday, August 21, 2011

cinta teragung


A very good video which can make you remember the purest love of all. Dont mind the video. Just focus more on the lyrics yah! its sooo beautiful




Maafkan aku sekiranya tak termampu
Untuk mencurahkan semua isi hatiku
Ternyata tak terkata
Rinduku padamu

Chorus
Ku takkan bisa menjadi lebih
Dari apa yang terdaya
Namun ku tetap berjanji
Akan masih mencuba untuk
Memujuk hatimu
Mencintai aku
Kerna semua yang ada
Hanyalah untukmu

Secebis perasaan ku hamparkan
Membawa sejuta harapan
Menagih cinta
Teragung darimu

Ulang Chorus 2X

Maafkan aku sekiranya
Tak termampu untuk
Mencurahkan semua
Isi hatiku


Friday, August 19, 2011

Pondering Point "-_-

SOGO DIHURUNGI MANUSIA SHOPPING RAYA

Pagi tadi, as I was getting ready for work, I switched on my TV. MHI was on. I kind of like to watch MHI early in the morning, especially if Wardina is on since she is REAL! She would simply say things which will later let us say 'Hey! That's true!"

By the way, this morning, Wardina was not on duty. Instead, they had Abby Fana with a guy which I cant recall his name.


There was this one slot, they invited Dato' Fadzilah Kamsah to take some calls and kind of console the callers.


Today, they discussed about Perbelanjaan Menjelang Aidilfitri. And what makes you 'tension' when Aidilfitri is around.


A caller from Seremban (a lady) called. She nearly cried. This is her story...

"Saya sudah lama tidak merasakan hariraya. Setiap tahun, saya akan tengok kembali baju yang lama-lama, dan saya akan alter, jahit semula ataupun saya akan tambah bunga atau corak bagi baju tu nampak lain. Saya penoreh getah. Saya tak mampu, jadi baju lama tu lah saya buka, dan jahit semula. Saya tambah jahitan bunga, biar nampak baru."


"Setiap pagi raya, saya memang tidak akan ada dirumah. Sudah lama mcm ni. Saya dan suami akan keluar menoreh dipagi raya. Kalau ada dirumah, pintu dibuka, nanti akan ada tetamu sampai. Mcmana saya nak jamu mereka makan? Apa pun saya tak sediakan. Saya tak mampu"

"Ada anak, tapi mereka tak pernah balik sewaktu hari raya. Mereka langsung tak pedulikan saya dan suami. Jadi, bila raya, mmg itulah yang kami akan buat. Kami menoreh"


Well... from the story, it was kind of sad to hear that. I did not hear everything, however, from comments made by DR Fadzilah Kamsah, it seems that, the children left the mother because their mom got married to another. Then they kind of neglecting the mother. So the mother cried.


Hmm...

Who to blame when this thing happen?

Then they talked about pembahagian balik beraya between spouse. This one, for sure I can reflect since I have seen this a lot of time. Fadzilah kamsah sangat betul! Kita tak boleh terlampau rigid to what we have agreed upon masa kita nak kawin@ baru kawin dulu. CTH:


"Nanti bila dah kawin, kita take turn balik raya. This year rumah ayang. next Year rumah Aling."


Yes! We must bertolak ansur. Ikut kata Fadzilah Kamsah, utamakan pihak yang ada ibu@ ayah tua. Tambah pulak kalau ibubapa dah uzur. anak sorang etc. Kita tak boleh nak berkeras jugak nak ikut giliran seperti yang kita janji dulu masa sebelum kahwin. Semua kena guna common sense.


This thing happens several times in my family. I really want to comment here, but I dont think it is kind of 'that' appropriate. Cth: If mak sakit. yng tinggal cuma anak bujang lelaki. At least kena la sorang anak perempuan balik tolong mak buat persiapan raya. tak bolehla suami nak juga berkeras nak balik ke kampung dia disebabkan giliran dah sampai. Semua ni boleh di ubah guna budi bicara. Suami isteri kena la saling memahami.


Byk kali aku tgk arwah mak nangis disebabkan hal mcm ni. Ye la. Dia tak larat nak masak apa semua. Anak2 pulak semua berkeras nak ikut turn. Kalau tak ikut nanti masalah pulak. Tu la kalau orang pelik kenapa aku boleh memasak, sebab mcm ni la. When you have ageing and old parents you have to take both roles; a daughter and a son. so kena pandai buat dua-dua. Pandai buat kerja dapur, memasak, kemas rumah, tak bermakna lembik atau pondan. Orang yang tak boleh switch role tu yang mmg patut malu sebab dorang hanya rigid kepada sesuatu benda. Lelaki: kerja berat. Xboleh masak, x boleh kemas. So shame on them.


Satu lagi, we have to reflect ourself. Apa akan jadi kalau kita ditemapt dorang. Just take the case of my mum. Even though, she knew that she could count on me, tp at the same time dia nak la juga anak pentingkan dia sikit. Ye la! Dia sakit. So anak2 le kena guna OTAK dan fikir semua ni. Just imagine, what would you do bila you are in their position. Kesian.


Aku pun kadang2 kesiankan diri sendiri. Apa tak nya, slalu anak lelaki lepas raya je, sure gi sana sini beraya. But like my case, I have to stay at home (in the kitchen) to help my mum serve guests and all. So, tak dapat join raya di dunia lelaki out there.


Duduk dapur, kemas2, hidang makan mmg dah biasa dah. Kalau tak aku buat, sapa lagi? But, now mom is no longer 'around' so I just buat tak tahu je. Now... Raya means... tido! haha.


Satu lagi fazilah kamsah commented on some people's behavior yang bila raya, nak tukar semua satu rumah. Semua kena baru. So dia kata "itu pemikiran gen-Y. Orang dulu-dulu. Skrang gen-X, dah takda semua tu."


Aku sangat setuju. Dulu, kalau raya, semua perabut nak ganti. skrang people just make do with what they have. many things can be reuse and recycle, so why bother to buy new ones? So just forget the Kak Timah menyambut raya kind of lifestyle. Keep it simple and sweet. Save some money, buy gold dinar, and save for your future.


This raya, I have decided to
wear last year's baju, songkok etc.


buy a few shirt since malaysia is in sale. So buy some good shirt, (esp office attire)


buy some biskut raya for contigency.


buy new office shoes. hehe.


stay at home.


till then.. See ya.


*I m busy, but I m just lost!

Monday, August 8, 2011

YOU SUCK AT LOVE!





OMG! How can these people manage to play carom in the office, while I dont even manage to breathe properly! Sicko sicko!

The due date is really near. 22/8/11. How many days left? gosh! a few more days! Need to set some appointments. Manage to get one, but what should I present! Mati loooooooo!


Working mood at home, so no no! What I want to do at home is just relax and enjoy my brown sofa.

AND shaite!!!! these people can still play carom and made noise like shaiteee!

Today! Simple Plan.... since 10am till now! loving them a lot! their new album is somewhat 'fresher' and milder than before. Enjoy their 1st tune so badly! and also, as usual their slow number is soo AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSSSSSOOOOMMEEE! love it love it!

Today... the sound of carom and annoying people laughing is submerged in my SIMPLE PLAN! you guys rawksss!!!




YOU SUCK AT LOVE!!!!! X0X0

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Last night...



Last night I went to Tarawikh. The surau is just a stone throw from my house. The surau is equiped with air-conditioner so people would be flocking there just to 'enjoy' the coldness. However, that is not the case.

Last night, when I was praying, I just couldnt stop myself from crying. My late mum's image flashed non-stop in front of me.

I heard her voice...

"Jom la kita pi terawih. Mak nak jalan pegang hang. Kuat sikit mak rasa."

Then, I could still remember her saying...

"Torchlight ni tak elok dah. Nanti hang beli baru kat mak. Senang mak nak bawak pi terawih."

And this the one that made me cried harder...

"Ki... hang buka posa makan apa?"

and for sure I miss her masak asam ikan masin a lot. This is my fav sahur dish.

Now....

I wont be able hear her voice again. I wont be able to hold her when we walk to the nearest mosque for tarawikh. I wont be able to taste her best masak asam ikan masin....

Raya is coming... and for sure

I wont be able to kiss her again. I wont be able to ask for her forgiveness. I wont be able to hug her. I wont be able to see her waiting for me by the door while I m cleaning the house.

Truthfully.... I wish raya would never come so that I wont have to face the sadness and the emptiness of not having the person that I cared the most. My mum.

My brother smsed me last night. He said...

"Raya ni aku balik kampong. Kita pi lawat mak"

My sister smsed me last night. She said...

"Aku rindu nak call mak pastu dengar dia kata "Na! Ni mak ni!""

My other sister said this to me..

"Kalau mak ada boleh la aku pi terawikh. Bolehla mak tunggu adik"

And my other brother texted me and said...

"Bayangkan bagaimanakah keadaan Ibu juga Bapa yang mendapat doa dari anak2nya yang berniat disetiap amal, pahala untuknya terus2an."

Everything yesterday was about my mum.

I miss my mom badly. She is gone, and I m now so lost and lonely. Feel like a dust in the thin air. No direction and hopelessly floating, wondering where will I land once the wind stop blowing.

To all you out there...

love your mum and cheerish her love. Appreciate those who love you 'coz you would never know when they will be taken away from you. 'coz once they are gone, it is useless to even cry blood. They wont be coming back.

Yup! last night I cried.

Mak! Aki sayang mak!.
AlFatihah.


~n~









Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Emotionally Not Good At All!



Sigh! Here I m. sighing again. Yup! I dont really know how should I describe my feeling now. Should I feel happy or should I feel sad?

Well.. financially I am doing great. I also heard that some good news are coming too, but I m just not in the mood to feel happy. I smile, but just a faint smile.

Last weekend will definitely be the moment that I will remember untill the day I die. There are still many things left unsaid, but trust me, I would never EVER want that kind of thing to happen again. Feel so hopeless and lost now. I do hope the 'spilled' things would make it better. Now, I truely agree with some counsellor's advice that is... when you happen to face any conflict, you must let it out. If you keep it in you, it will definitely be a time bomb, just waiting for the right time to explode.

Well, Ramadhan is here and its time to 'mend' and 'fix' yourself. Its the healing season. I do hope I wouldn't be dragging my Ramadhan in sorrow. I want to see lights at the end of the tunnel. I want to be better. A better human, a better muslim and a better..... erm... brother. I do hope Allah would give the chance to prove it and I do hope He (Allah) would permit such and grant all my Doas. I will definitely send my prayers everyday, non-stop, at least 5 times a day (after my solah).

There are a few things that I would not miss in my Doa. Of of the thing is to hope Allah would let me become a better brother and a better muslim. I know I m not perfect, but I will try my best to be at least a good brother and muslim. I have my ups and downs too. I have my emotion turmoil too. I do know that Allah would help me go through them all and be a successful person. Insyallah. He has the power.

There are a few things which I will have to complete within these 30 days. One of them will definitely change my future (Insyallah).

I just hope that my shoulder is warm and good enough for some other people to lean and share with me all his/ her hiccups.

To all people whom I love dearly, please forgive me. I need you guys in my life and there is no hidden agenda underneath it. You guys are so special and I want you guys to stay. I love you guys more than I love myself. Enough said. You know who you are.


Now the lyrics of this song is playing in my head repeatedly. Just cant shut it down. So here it goes, I share it with you.

One Republic- Come Home

Hello world hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young or speaking out of turn
But there's someone I've been missing
And I think that they could be the better half of me

They're in the wrong place tryin' to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying

So I say to you come home come home
'cause I've been waiting for ya for so long for so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
And the fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home

I get lost in the beauty of everything I see
The world ain't half as bad as they paint it to be
If all the sons and all the daughters stop to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin

It might start now yeah
Or maybe I'm just dreaming out loud

But until then come home come home
'cause I've been waiting for ya for so long for so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
And the fight for you is all I've ever known ever known
So come home ooh

Everything I can't be is everything you should be
And that's why I need you here
Everything I can't be is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here

So hear this now come home come home
'cause i've been waiting for ya for so long for so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
And the fight for you is all i've ever known ever known
So come home come home


Salam Ramadhan to All. Wishing you a great month ahead. Insyallah.