Wednesday, January 27, 2010

jika kau...


Jika kau
Jika kau rasakan dirimu memerlukanku
hampirlah padaku
dengan hati yang tulus
seikhlasnya

jika kau rasa dirimu ditekan
hampirlah padaku
akan kucuba ungkaikan tekanan itu
dengan sedayanya

jika kau rasa dirimu ditindas
hampirlah padaku
akan ku usaikan belenggu itu
dan nafaskan kebebasan mu


jika teman yang kau perlukan
cubalah aku
akan ku temani mu
semampunya bersahabat dengan mu
dan menghela kesunyian

jika kasih yang kau dambakan
halakan wajahmu padaku
biarku belai diri mu
dengan tulus diriku
semampunya


kerana aku mahu kau tahu
aku sentiasa disini buat dirimu
dalam jerit perih
dalam suka gembira
tiada halangan itu semua
kerana aku mahu kau tahu
aku disini
menanti.




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mak nenek!




Jika anda sering diserang sakit kepala, selain makan ubat amalkan petua ini :


Ramas beberapa helai daun sirih di dalam mangkuk yang berisi air.
Kemudian basahkan kepala dengan air dan daun sirih tersebut sambil memicit-micit kepala selama 15 minit.
Tumbuk enam helai daun sawi hingga lumat. Campurkan dengan sedikit garam, lumurkan serta gosokkan perlahan-lahan pada dahi dan pelipis.
Ramas asam jawa sebesar telur ayam dengan secawan santan lalu tapis. Kemudian basahkan kepala dengan air suam lalu bungkus. Biarkan seketika dan kering di kepala, barulah basuh bersih. Rasa sakit akan berkurangan dan rambut jadi lembut.
Tumbuk dua atau tiga helai daun setawar hingga lumat. Kemudian tempekkan di kepala dan balutkan. Biarkan semalaman.
Rebus beberapa biji kulit manggis dengan tiga gelas air. Biarkan sehingga airnya tinggal satu gelas sahaja. Tapis dan buangkan hampasnya. Berkumur setiap hari tapi jangan sampai terminum pula airnya.


Sakit kepala lagi?


Setiap orang mungkin mengalami sakit kepala yang amat sangat akibat tekanan di tempat kerja dan sebagainya.Jadi untuk menghilangkan rasa sakit kepala itu, ambil tiga atau empat keping asam gelugor atau asam keping. Rendamkan dalam air suam semalaman. Minum air tersebut pada keesokkan harinya. Insyaallah sakit kepala anda akan hilang serta merta.


Tak hilang jugak sakit kepala?


1) Tidur sambil berzikir membantu meredakan kebanyakan jenis sakit kepala. Tidurlah seketika di siang hari jika anda sakit kepala. Sebaiknya tidur sekejap sebelum masuk waktu zuhur kerana ia merupakan sunnah Nabi s.a.w. Tapi jangan tidur selepas Asar, ditakuti mewarisi ‘kegilaan’.

2) Rehatkan otot-otot dan fikiran anda. Berhenti dari melakukan kerja atau berfikir tentang masalah.

3) Seringkali juga sakit kepala disebabkan oleh kelaparan, oleh itu jangan biarkan diri anda berlapar terlalu lama.

4) Jalan dengan cepat atau bersenam ringan dapat membawa oksigen ke otak, menurunkan rasa tertekan serta menyebabkan badan kita mengeluarkan endorphin, unsur penahan sakit semulajadi. Jangan dok main game facebook saja!

5) Mengurut boleh melegakan otot dan memperbaiki pengaliran darah dan mengurangkan rasa sakit kepala. Mari kita pergi rumah urut ! waheyuuuu!




Ubat untuk anda mengurangkan tekanan ialah dengan mengambil air kelapa muda. Campurkan dengan air perahan limau nipis. Minum dengan satu nafas sahaja.




Cara untuk mententeramkan jiwa ialah dengan membaca al-Quran sekurang-kurangnya sekali sehari pada waktu malam atau pagi.


Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Sebagai teman

Especially to my best bro (encik adik) and to all my friends... I love you all. each one of you is SPECIAL!

Sejauh manakah ketabahan hati
menempuhi dunia
walaupun kau jauh
kau tetap di hati
teman ku percayalah...

begitu tulusnya perhatian kamu
kepada diriku
hidupku berombak
namun kau selalu ada kuatkanku

Oh.. mengapa .. dunia ini begini
ku cuma manusia biasa
yang hanya inginkan hidup seperti yang lain
mengapa harus begini?

sejak hari itu hatiku terluka
namun ku sembunyi
ku juga mengerti
walaupun terselindung
kau teman...
aku fahami...

Oh Tuhan
tunjukkanlah jalanMu
padaku untuk bahagia
selamanya....
kuatkanlah diri menjalani semua ini...




Monday, January 25, 2010

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many to write.. but I have decided not to write any... for now!

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heh heh heh.. aiyoks!

Friday, January 22, 2010

ko mesti suka ni bro..




olololololoooooo!

felt what?


felt pretty much NOT ok yesterday. I was trying to put myself to sleep around 6 pm, hoping that i could put my mind at ease. But, I failed. I was tossing and turning atas katil for like an hour, but i couldnt put myself to sleep. I thought i was so tired and sleep would heal. But, nope! it was the same.

I didnt know what to do. Tried not to touch my lappy. so i was walking around the house. Felt "like" hungry. I ate some cheezel that i bought that day! then, sat in front of the tv watching a malay series. Cha O Mei (if i m not mistaken!) Bad acting, bad script and bad choice of actors as usual. Didnt really understand the storyline, but i watched it anyway, out of boredom.

Azan maghrib... i got ready, went to surau. there was a kuliah last night. so listened to the kuliah for like 45 minutes. Then I couldnt stand it anymore. Not the kuliah, but my back. My back pain kind of getting worse. So, i went home and performed my isya'. Doa! yes! that is all I need! Allah's assistance.

then, picked the laundry and folded them nicely while watching blogger boy and then AI. I was trying NOT to switch on my lappy. but i failed. Click here and there... sometimes I wish i dont even subscribe to broadband. Since I used it a lot last time, to YM and all, but these days... sigh!

latip got some presents from kyuti. thanks bro.

then, kemas2 sikit.. and off to bed. again, it was not and easy task. pusing pusing pusing. i didnt realize what time i fell asleep. But i know for sure I woke up several times (as usual). I had restless night (as usual), sleepless night (as usual)... check my hp at 2 am. got 2 messages. checked it again at 3 am, and then 5 am, and then 6 am!

6.30 i had enough!

around 7.40 i tried to eat some cereal, but think again... dont want! so off to work! on Hot.FM. they used to make me laugh. but now, even the jokes were really good, i just lift my lips a bit. Thats it!

now.. i m in the office, trying to recall how miserable I am. Its friday.. I m trying to enjoy it... but can i?

i want to b happy

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Happy lyrics

Verse 1:
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t cha love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just cant let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh


Bridge:
So and it’s just that I can’t see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Thursday, January 21, 2010

eating disorder


this is me before...



I was trying to do my work but, my mind cant concentrate. Instead, here I am writing this blog. *sigh*


lately I m having strange eating habit or i can refer it as eating disorder. I dont feel like eating at all. I dont seem to feel hungry! my stomach would be grombling, grawling, but after taking a bite or two, i would feel full and would stop eating.


Yesterday, I bought tomyam and nasi kosong. Hoping that the sourness of the tomyam would make me berselera untuk makan. But, unfortunately... nil! Nero. I didn't even touch it! last night I took only 2 roti gardenia! hmm... yesterday I had my brunch at 11.00 am. I took some rice with a cruncy fried catfish. I ate it halfway and then i got bored. So I stopped. So there you go!


Actually I m sick of eating! I would eat something for a couple of minutes, then I would just stop eating. Everything seems so ... i dont know.. not interesting.


early today, I went to the cafe and tried an omelette set. It looks really delish and it does taste good too. But again, after a few munches, I got bored. and I 'throw' them down my throat. for lunch, i went to ikan bawal. Again, i didnt not eat ikan.... Instaed I took jelatah, telur goreng and bergedel only! owh! with a jambu. No nasik. itu je la! huhu.


I m getting skinnier lah! huhu! I have no intention of becoming skinny. I just want to loose my belly a bit. But this is too much! No! I dont chow any diet pills or in any diet plans. i just dont know!


this is me NOW!

digest this...




to everybody, especially to my bro...

digest this...


as human we would never be free from having problem. It depends on how we see them, handle them and cope with em. One day you will look bak and say, hey... been there, done that.


the most important thing is to remember that you are strong enough to face em all. eventhough you think you cant face it, but actually you can. see how far you have gone now. try to look back and see how different you are now. You are stronger, you are a fighter. Keep on fighting. dont surrender. Surrendering what you have tried so far will be a waste. Lust and needs are two different things. Infiltered lust would make you enjoy temporarily but suffer later. but needs need determination and strong motivation to achieve. How weak you think you are, how bad you think you are, well... see how well you have become now.


the beauty of being a human is that we have akal. this akal makes us think what we want, and what we dont! use our akal properly and we will be ok.


lust will always hunt us, This is where akal comes in. If we let syaitan controls our lust, then we will would surely do what we shouldnt do. Fight! Fight! Fight! let akal controls our lust but not lust controls our akal!

I m hoping for your very best
I m hoping for your success..
most of all, I m praying for you to be on the right path!

Insyallah! you will be ok! My prayers would always be FOR and WITH you... ALWAYS....


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

kenangan berpusing disekeliling..


i know, lepas baca blog ni, mmg ada ramai yang akan marah aku, especially my bro la! dia akan kata, "kata dah move on, ni tak.... bla bla bla".. ye ye.. aku dah move on! aku dah kembali menggila mcm dulu! tapi tadi le insiden yang membuatkan aku cair! lalalala... slurp!!


gini kisahnya...


aku kena g public post coz nak kena setel beberapa hal MUET ni. so tetiba, bila tingkap kaunter serahan tingkap dibuka..aku terus... weeewoooooweeewoooweewoooo! apa taknya, wajah yang pernah menjadi kesayangan ku tetiba muncul! wok! aku mcm... erk?!?!


hohoho! sebnarnya, itu bukan ex aku, tapi itu ialah seorang gadis (my ex-student) yang muka dia mmg sebijik mcm ex aku dulu. dulu kalau rindu-rinduan, muka itu juga aku lihat .. (GATAL!) tapi, gadis itu dulu dipunyai oleh seorang lagi student aku, dalam kelas yang sama gak! gadis tu used to be kepunyaan Wafiy (Capang). Tapi aku dapat tahu masa di OZ dulu, si Wafiy dah clash ngan si gadis tu coz katanya gadis tu dah jumpa orang lain and tak sanggup tunggu dia nak sambung belajar! aku pun.. hek?? wei! ex kita muka sama, and kita sama2 kena buat mcm tu! wuhuhu! adakah semua yang bermuka sama akan bertindak sama.? adoyai! tapi apapun, dah lama aku tak contact si wafiy tu! nanti nak balik pi jengok dia kat FS la! apa la khabar si wafiy tu! tapi yang aku tahu dulu, last year, wafiy dah dapat girl baru! and he is having fun! mamat hensem, mana la tak dapat ganti cepat kan? so.. best of luck la to him.


cumanya aku ni laa... tadikan, bila dia tegur.. "en Zaki kan", aku macam... aiyooooo!! meleleh! kamu kamu kamu! kamukah! kemudian rasa mcm nak minta no tel je.. ye la.. ex student aku tu! mahulah aku keep in touch kan (GATAL 3X)... huhu.. tapi aku teringat si wafiy, terus HELL NO! i m NOT gonna date her, and aku tgk kat jari dia ada kesan inai. walaupun kat kuku, aku rasa dia dah kawin. tapi dia dah jadi gadis la.. aiyo!! meleleh lagi! slurp!! santek siut!!


masa drive balik dari p.office tu, mula la hati ni meracau, merantau, and merayau... kenangan lama datang menyapa... wuhuhu... tapi aku ingat pesan bro aku, so cepat2 aku gelakkan je. hoho! so takde la! itu just sekali je, meleleh kejap! tapi.. adoyai! ayunya dia! wowowowowowo! AYU!!! AYUUUUU! hmm.... sedih plak, tapi tanak sedih dah! aku dah ckp pada kawan2, Julia, and janji to my bro yang aku akan cuba happykan diri! yeah yeah! so HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!


Happy zaki in coming through people, so please make way! Throw confetti sikit! weewit! kaboom kaboom!
*now i m happy coz aku ada bro yang syiok and best! wuhuhu! so happy days continue!... smile smile smile.. and not to forget my kawan2 yang juga sangat baguih! gedik gedik sket! huhuhu! miss you guys.. A LOT! T_T

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

kerja lahhh sayang!






O.M.G! tadi baru habis meeting! wuwuwu! terbeliak mata ku melihat senarai kerja yang aku kena buat untuk sem ni. To start with, aku kena handle ENGLISH CAMP NORTHERN REGION! gila la wey! northen region tu! memula dorang nak buat bulan February, a few days after raya cina.. HELL NO! aku dah ada plan baekkk punya! tapi nasib baiklah my boss kata tak boleh nak buat lepas CNY coz ada apa tah! so aku pun.. WUUHUUU! YESS!



pastu nak buat bulan 3 plak, hampir2 dengan cuti skolah! sekali lagi aku HELL NO! mana boleh! cuti sekolah tu ada mcm2 tu! hehehe. Then luckily boss aku ckp bulan MAC dah byk aktiviti. so dorang bawak ke April! Alhamdullillah! Bulan April mmg takde apa. kalau si adik nak balik pun, ok je, bisa diatur. hehe.. yeay yeay! So English Camp bulan April! wuuhuuu!!! tapi kalut sikit ah coz ada benda lain nak kena buat lagi! esok ada meeting lagi, so kena bincang lagi!



selain tu, nama aku naik berkali2 untuk MUET! astaga! kena jadi penyelaras la plak! nasib baik tak mcm kulim! kulim dulu 2 pusat! tapi sini dorang hadkan 1 pusat je. so tak la aku perlu berpusat2! just jaga pusat exam dan pusat aku je. hehe! (Gross!)



pastu , dalam table tadi nama aku ada di mana2. aiyok! hampir terduduk aku! keluar abis semua air! especially hidung cos aku selsema, so agak terkejut juga. nampak gayanya sem ni akan tak duduk diam la. huhu. so sedih one!



tapi aku mcm mana busy pun aku akan buat masa untuk orang2 yang aku sayang. so pada anda semua (you know who you are!) dont worry, busy mcm mana pun aku tetap akan ganggu korang semua seperti biasa. harapnya korang pun sama. jgnla stop ganggu aku k. I promise, how busy I am I will always make time for you! I PROMISE!





hari ni aku agak flat jugak coz tak berapa sihat! selsema ni! makan ubat and aku mmg agak2 ngong skit! dari pagi aku dok tertunggu2 sms yang sentiasa aku tunggu! kalau tak dapat sms ni mmg aku sgt dull. Bukan apa, pengirim sms tu mmg orang yang sangat penting buat aku and dan antara orang2 yang penting dalam sejarah hidup aku! kalau takda brita dari dia, mmg aku betul2 lost! mmg aku tak tipu!



tapi biasa la, busy kan... emm... tapi tghari tadi dapat 1 sms yang dah berbulan aku tak dapat! adoi! seronok rasa! aku tak sangka a simple sms like that can actually make me jumping up and down! adoi! mmg betul aku tak tipu! tiba2 rasa kembali bernafas. TQ la ek! you know who you are! you are not just a friend, you are my family, a part of my life. so please hold on to it k! and please note that you are SO DAMN important to me!



hmm... mcm ni la bila hidup menumpang kasih orang lain. Tak pernah ada apa yang orang lain ada. so bila ada, mmg terasa sangat happy! jadi aku rasa tak salah kot kalau aku ni rasa gembira mcm ni! i am 30, and only now aku jumpa orang yang buat aku rasa, well I am not alone! TQ buddy! U r the best! and please always be!



It is funny though how can a simple sms can change someone's life. So keep 'em coming! tapi aku ni ckp betul, bukan semua orang mcm aku, bila aku kata aku suka, aku sayang, aku rindu, tu mmg betul2 aku maksudkan. bukan just nak jaga hati ke, atau just to fill in the emptiness ke. tapi it is for REAL! I am a man of my words. Bila aku kata aku tak suka, mmg aku tak suka! kalau aku suka, mmg aku suka! takde la mcm.... kat tengah2! so harap anda mengerti! and I m the type yang akan reveal my emotion! aku happy mmg nampak aku gelak! kalau aku diam, monyok, mmg ada yang tek kena! so harap anda faham ok!



jgn salahkan aku sekiranya aku suka and ask and crave for comforting words like, "I love you forever", or 'I miss you", or "you are my bestfriend", coz who doesnt???



c ya!


Monday, January 18, 2010

we know we are ok, when we are ok!




I m ok, you are ok!

What's going on tonight? Is everything alright?
I hope that nothing's wrong. I haven't seen you
in so long.

I'm away, you're here to stay and I'm away and
you're ok
You're here to stay and I'm away, you're here to
stay and I'm ok

What exactly do you do, when I'm not with you?
What exactly do you say, all the time that I'm away?


You tell me nothing's wrong
Seems like I've been gone oh so long
Nothing seems to have changed
Yet the familiar things seem all so strange

Sunday, January 17, 2010

crita hantu yang emo sikit... emm emm

i m back after beberapa hari of silence. Hari ni ahad, my brother aka my best buddy dah betolak balik. sedih plak rasa. ye la. bukan selalu dia balik penang. Ni tah bila plak dia nak balik lagi. Ye la, bila ada geng, barula aku ni kuar jalan2 and have fun, kalau tak aku ni rasa hidup aku gloomy je. sedey pedey! jalan sorang, makan sorang. sedey jek. so... sad kan? this is the fact that a single guy at 30 must face. what to do! it is fated.

well. my bro dah balik, kalau ikut aku tanak le dia balik ke seremban. tapi I must face the fact that he has his own life. Kalau dia dok penang, mcmana dgn dunia dia kat sana. takkan la kerana nak temankan aku lepak2 dia kena balik penang. ingat apa? bapak dia sultan brunei ke? hmm... tapi mmg rasa sedih la. now, i m back. sengsorang layan cerita kat tv. Ni cerita Ali Setan 2. yang tahapa2.

aku ni tak gemor la cerita2 yang baca skrip sebiji-sebijik ni. letih! fake gila! ni slalu filem melayu la. kenapa nak kena kata : "sebelum aku pergi, izinkan aku menatap mata mu?" kan ke mudah kalau di ckp " woi! tengok sini! aku nak cakap! " kan lebih natural. Ni tak! aiyo! nak cerita satu2 benda tu pun take years. hish! bengong! tapi aku rasa aku sangat anti cerita2 mcm ni sebab aku ni jenis kalau aku rasa apa, aku luahkan je kot. so maybe itu la pasal aku tak gemo berbahasa buku ni.

hmm... ckp pasal luah2 ni, aku pun kdg2 rasa bengkek gak ngan diri aku sendiri. aku suka sangat luah apa aku rasa,kdg2 buat orang marah. buat orang kecik hati. pastu nanti orang tgk aku, orang lari. tapi nak buat mcmana. aku dah mcm ni. so if you like me, like what comes with the whole package. I can be bossy some times, and be so busy body. tapi selalunya bertempat. Aku busy body pada orang2 yang very dear and close to me je. Tak kira la, kawan2 ke , family members ke, students ke. Coz aku mmg tanak tgk orang susah atau dapat susah. aku dah puas susah, so aku tanak orang lain dapat susah. so kalau kdg2 aku busy body bukan kerana aku ni suka busy body, just I care too much! ni aku petik lirik lagu come home dari one republic tu!


"Everything i can’t be Is everything you should be And that’s why i need you here..."

so pada sesiapa yang ada rasa mcm aku tersibuk dalam hidup dorang please forgive me. As I always said before. I m a no nonsense person. Everthing I do, i would do them for reasons. bukan pakai tembak je k. hmm.. and most of the time because of sayang!

i also hate the fact that people can't lie to me. Spooky eh? but that is the fact! kalau orang tipu, mesti aku dapat tahu. walaupun aku cuba tak nak ambil tahu tapi the truth akan cucuk aku. argh! last skali aku sakit hati! tapi takpa, I m used to that! and aku sedar kadangkala orang kena tipu coz nak jaga kebaikan bersama. ye la. tgk je la aku ni mcmmana, kdg2 aku tak tido malam coz fikir yang pelik2 , and fikir panjang berjela. sedangkan benda tu sikit je. Tapi that is me. My brain is just TOO strong. Tapi aku dah faham sekrang yang apa orng buat tu ada baiknya. Coz kadang2 kalau diberitahu, akan mengeruhkan keadaan. so better keep it lah. so, i m ok with that! and aku tahu, orang tu sayang aku. dia tanak aku fikir panjang2, tak tido coz pikir benda2 tu semua. hmm... case close. i know you have good intention.

hmm... my bro ada penang sejak jumaat malam. so. jauh dia balik. kesian la! naik bus berjam2. terhantuk atas bus la. duduk seblah orang ada B.O la. then dia sakit kepala. tahan kencing (haha! ini tak bleh blah, setiap kali balik sure sampai penang je kalang kelibut cari toilet. haha). tp TQ to him la, coz sanggup balik. Sonok betul, walaupun boleh kira la brapa jam je bleh lepak2. tak sempat nak g mandi ayor terjun pun! aku pun dah lama tak mandi air terjun. so ingat nak le g air terjun harini lepas p buat IC kat kulim. tup2, aku baru teringat yang di kena balik semula ke seremban sebelum pukul 11 malam. and I agree with him, tempat dia tu sucks! hmm... apa punya ground rules. cheit poodah! sabar la bro. mcm aku slalu kata pada dia la, sementara nak lepas. nanti kalau dah lepas, haa... you will be free. hmm...

ok dia sampai je penang aku dah agak dah, dia mesti kebulur punya. so seperti biasa makan time. P makan sate le. itu yang dia suka. lepas makan apa lagi... MOVIE TIME..!!! huhu (ni aktiviti wajib ni!)



dok rancang2 nak tengok cerita seram. walaupun aku ni sebnarnya tak suka cerita hantu, tapi aku nak cuba gak le. ye la, dah tua. mana la tau kot2 dah berubah, dah tak takut cerita hantu. so malam tu rancang nak tgk JU ON- black ghost white ghost. tapi dah takde midnite (Alhamdullillah), pastu tgk ada PARANORMAL ACTIVITY. so aku pun, kata la pada diri aku sendiri, "alah ! cerita hantu omputih! apa la sangat!" walaupun agak cuak juga. tapi, aku tak kisah, akuk ngikutkan je. tapi seyes, cerita tu agak menakutkan! haha! adala jugak beberapa part aku tutup mata! haha! bukan apa tak sanggup nak bertentang mata dengan hantu2 ni, nanti jatuh chenta, haaaa.. kan susah! so buka mata sikit jer! huhu. tapi aku tak miss storyline. Yang aku nak tergelak, si cipol tu yang beriya2 nak tgk crita hantu, tapi dia terhenjut2 terkejut bila ada part2 yang mcm suspen. keja aku? gelakkan dia! haha! well what to do! aku mmg suka gelak! haha! tetapi pada sesiapa yang nak tgk movie tu, sila la! best wooooo!

then hari sabtu tu, aku sangat letih! aku bgn tido pun dah kul brapa dah! ye la! it was a busy week for me! apa taknya, dah start buat kerja2 FRP. so kalau ada masa mengulor tu, sangat la aku gunakan. Gi makan kat ikan bawal (ni jaja ngan su yang kenalkan pada aku) pastu g ke gurney coz nak tgk lagi crita hantu! plan nak tgk JU ON ngan CASE 39. Ingat taknak g seberang, tapi cinema kat sini takde movie yang nak tengok tu, so kami ke Pulau la. sampai sana dah kul 3++. ingat nak g ambik tiket, pastu nak g camwhore kat feringhi ke. sekali bila ke cinema tengok2, timing tak baik. so tak jadi g camwhore, terus g tgk movie. I dragged cipol along! haha. nasib baik la bro aku tu tak byk kerenah. walaupun dia sebenarnya request nak tgk JU ON kat cinema yang ada kat tepi kawasan kubor and nak cari cinema yang ada kisah berhantu yang tersendiri. huhu. tapi sorry bro, your request tak dapat aku grant la. haha.. sah2 sahla takde mall seblah kubor kat msia ni. so.. layan je la.. Ju On pun not bad. Takowt gak! hantu dia asyik sendawa, and cipol seperti biasa, akan terkejut, terkejut! hehe. aku? gelakkan je. hehe.

pastu g tonton case 39 plak. woo. ni pun best! aku tak penah tgk si Rene Zelweger belakun cerita genre mcm ni! slalu dia bawak watak blonde yang ala-ala. tak pun yang ada kisah klakar2 skit. Tu yang aku tak sabar2 nak tgk tu. then kitorang tgk movie kedua pukul 9.45mlm. sempat la g makan dulu! si cipol dok sebut pasal prosperity burger! so lepas makan MCD, pi toilet, terus masuk cinema! Ramai gak orang tgk movie ni! so, ok la, tak la takut sangat! yang malam tu aku tgk PARANORMAL tu, cinema tu cuma ada aku, cipol and 2 orang penonton lain! takowt weh! Masa tgk case 39 ramai, so ok la. lagipun dia tunjuk hantu sikit2 je. Lelain more like psychology. But I like. so sesapa yang blum tonton, sila la . sila! Movie ni ada ciri2 mcm the Orphan! I like!.


Hmm.. balik dah malam, kul 12 tghmalam singgah stesen bus. ambil tiket si cipol. pastu balik. kul 2 baru aku tido coz burn lagu. pastu zzzzzzzz......

hmm, pagi ni bgn awal coz nak temankan si cipol buat IC baru. tapi tak jadi coz dia tak siap apa lagi. so, lain kali la. lepak tgk tv, pastu dalam kul 11pg, kuar makan and hantar si cipol ke bus station. pastu baliklah my bro ke seremban. and aku.. tinggal sengsorang.... hmm.. tak tau nak buat apa, singgah kat Sunway Carnivale jap, pusing skali dlm 15 mins. aku dah bosan. ingat nak g jusco. tapi tetiba mood tak ok. balik umah, buka tv. now.. masih depan TV sambil dok taip blog.

sms cipol, ingat nak gangu dia dalam bus tu, tapi takde respond! tido la tu. hmmm

Hmm.. my bro dah balik.... sob sob... lagu COME HOME by one republic kembali berkumandang!

Friday, January 15, 2010

dari kerana mata...


well well well.... what is it?



aku sebenarnya agak bengang pada sorang makhluk Allah ni. mata dia dah merah, sakit mata, tapi dia datang keja jugak. apa yang harus aku atau kami lakukan akan dia balik rumah dan ambik MC. Sakit mata sangat mudah berjangkit. ye la kami takde pi bersentuh kulit ke, tangan ke dengan dia, tapi please la. Mata tengah teruk tu, so balik la. Ni kalau jangkit pada semua mcmana? dah la sem baru nak bukak. nanti dah dapat reputasi yang terok coz sem baru bukak, tapi kelas tak boleh nak masuk.



kalau ikut rasionalnya, mmg kami semua terdedah kepada penyakit ni. Ye la, apa taknya, semua akan pegang tombol pintu yang sama, semua akan pegang surat khabar yang sama, so mmg tendency for us to be infected is very high. even at the moment of speaking ni pun aku rasa mata aku pelik.. hehe biasa la! aku kan over emosi. tapi please laaaa..... aku nak masuk kelas besok oi! kenapa la datang keje? pi la balik. pi la! shuuh! shuuh!



so sebagai langkah berjaga2, aku akan lapik tombol pintu agar tidak terkena kulit ku. Tidak berada hampir dengan beliau. Aku sedang menjauhkan diri ni. lagi? apa aku perlu buat neh?



hmm... ni pun dorang nak pi solat jumaat dengan dia, aku tanak. .. biarla aku pi sorang, sekurang2 nya jauh dari dia.



kalau korang ditempat aku, apa korang nak buat??
tapi kalau sakit mata and mata jadi biru mcm pic tu, aku sangat suka la. huhu..

sakit mata?????

TiiddaaaaakkkkkK!KK!K!K!K!K!K

aku di tinggalkan lagi... :(

Petang tadi aku balik rumah kejap, tetiba aku tengok balang ikan ku berwarna agak pelik. Bila aku perhatikan, tidak kelihatan ikan, juga teman aku yang sentiasa ada dengan aku kat dalam rumah ni sejak mula-mula aku melangkah masuk ke sini. Skrang dia dah tak ada! Dia telah pulang kerahmatullah! Aku redha dengan pemergian dia. Aku doakan rohnya ditempatkan bersama ikan-ikan yang beriman. Dia ialah ikan yang baik. Amin.




Bye bye buddy! :(
Thank you so much! :(

Aku ditinggalkan sendiri.... lagi... sob sob

aku akan berkabung... selama 44 minit!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

mari mencari jodoh


hari ni ada seorng kawanku mahu aku bertemu dengan seseorang. katanya apa salah berkenal kenalan menambah rakan taulan. Aku tidak kisah. Aku ok je. Kalau ada rezeki, kalau sesuai, apa salahnya. Kawan-kawan lah dulu kan? makanya aku stuju. Ini bukan kali pertama. dah banyak kali dah. tapi as i would always say, I m open to any possibilities. Aku bukan jenis berfikiran sempit. So let the game begin. I did tell jaja that I want to flirt more, so let the flirting begins. haha.
sambil2 tu aku tersenyum dengar lagu wali band. Aku nak attach video dia tapi mcm susah plak. Lagipun kat opis ni mmg video2 segala tu kena block. So aku letak lirik je la. Sila hayati...

Cari Jodoh
Wali Band

Apa salahku apa salah ibuku
Hidupku dirundung pilu
Tak ada yang mau dan menginginkan aku
Tuk jadi pengobat pilu
Tuk jadi penawar rinduT
uk jadi kekasih hatiku*

Timur ke barat selatan ke utara
Tak juga aku berjumpa
Dari musim duren hingga musim rambutan
Tak kunjung aku dapatkan
Tak jua aku temukan
Oh tuhan inikah cobaan

**Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

***Pengumuman-pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasihani aku
Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau

Ibu bapak punya anak
Bilang-bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

ps: tapi mind you, aku bukan tak laku k. sapa kata aku tak laku! aku tak pernah menjual pun!

Kemudian, dalam dok cari-cari pic yang sesuai nak letak kat sini, aku jumpa pulak doa ni kat blog inandatiaka.wordpress.com/.../doa-minta-jodoh/. so aku pun paste la kat sini. sila la baca. senyum sikit2 sudah la ek. layannnn!

Doa Minta Jodoh
Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku, jodohkanlah…
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah juga…
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh…
Kalau dia bukan jodohku,jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku…
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku ,jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku…
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali…
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain,putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku….
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain, biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku..
amin.


Gila! haha ...

just for fun eh!

The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus

Hey! Its Thursday people. One more day to go before I can rest at home. My mum is at Teluk Intan now, so I guess I don't have to rush to balik kampung as usual. hmm..

On Tuesday, I was so busy updating my blog. I want it to look pleasant. It won't be great coz I m not a PSV person (like what I said to Cipol) Just want it to be ok and nice. Now the blog looks ok, (I guess!). I dont wan't it to be so plain, or looks to rowdy, just ok will do the thing. So I slept around 4am just for that purpose. Lalala. ada orang marah aku tido pukul 4 haritu. Huhuhu.

Ok.. This would be my 2nd entry after the renovation process. In the meeting yesterday, Su and Jaja were planning to watch movie, and it was Wednesday, of course its like a thing that I MUST not miss. I , tanpa segan silu, invite myself to join them. However, I and Jaja watched AVATAR already, so we planned to watch The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus.



I was planning to watch this movie with Cipol since last year. This is because my fav actor (Heath Ledger) and Cipol's fav actor (Collin Ferrel) is in it! Unfortunately, he watched it with a friend of his in Seremban last week. I m a bit disappointed, ( T_T ) but what to do. Never mind lah, there would always be other movies that I can watch with him once he is around. I was jumping up and down to watch the movie since my fav actor is in the movie. To add in the excitement, Jude Law is in it too. Woohoo!. These would be 2 of my fav actors. :)


Jude Law




Heath Ledger



Ok.. now let me tell you about the movie.

Hmm.... Cipol told me that he slept while watching the movie. I was taken aback upon hearing this, but I wanted to watch it by myself. Once I watched it, I was.. well it is not that bad. I can give 3 stars. It is not a typical movie. It is full of imagination. No wonder the title is like that. So, what do you expect? Since, I took literature, so i guess I can enjoy it more then. But all I can say is that, it is full with messages. Here, I list some of connotative messages that can be withdrawn from the movie:


1. Imagination can run wild and usually it leads to something bad. However, it can also be a temporary relief.

2. In life you have to make choices. The outcome is indeed blurry, but you have to endure it. If you are lucky, you are going to face it with open smile. If not, just take it one sip at a time k.

3. Dont trust and get emotionally involved with someone that you have just met. You must investigate the person, his intention etc. You can mix with him, but just think twice, why do you think he wants to be around you? Will it be of any good? In the movie, Tony was pretending to be supportive and good, but in fact, actually he was using Dr Parnassus and his daughter in getting away from something. Along the way, he used them to get fame, and got what he wanted. Finally, his tactics got him. He died! Because of him Valentina and Anton had problems. Hmm.. that's bad.!

4. There is no use to live 1000 years. what you have is enough lah.

5. Death can stop you from getting old, but you'll rot! Do you want that?

6. Don't trust devil. coz, even though 'he' seems nice, dresses smart, sound empathetical, he is still a devil, so do not make any pack with devil. In the movie, Dr Parnassus owde the devil fo something that he needs badly, a lady. Towards the end of the movie, he regretted it coz he lost his beloved daughter. So, make a pack with devil, you might lost the one you love too. hmm.

7. Something fun can harm you. So, before you do anything fun think again, again and again.

8. You think less when you are excited especially when lust is involved. This can be seen in the movie when those ladies got so excited after coming out from the mirror. They did not think much, they gave everything they had.

9. Don't be amazed with good looks and sweet talks. They might not be real.

10. In order for you to get ahead, you must forget the past and cherish what you have now.
11. You can be very famous, but what good will it do to you when you are alone?
12. You can always dream of becoming someone else, but what will you get when the one that you like to be is actually the one that you dont want to be? Think again.
13. You may want to take your own life, but what will happen if you have taken you own life? Do you think you will like the after life?
14. Things that you cant get would always seem like the best.
15. You can't have everything.
16. You can hide your past, but can you run from it?
17. There would always be something good out of bad.
18. We need to change if we want to be better.


huh! there are many more. I want to buy the DVD and try to list as many massages as possible. But indeed, it is not just a movie which anybody can enjoy, you have to think. really REALLY deep. You might not think about this while watching it, but the thoughts after it that will make you realize, wow... it is indeed a masterpiece.

Kenapa sesiapa yang ambil literature, go and watch this movie. You will ponder many things! hehe.
Julia, abang kesayangan ko, si Pirate of Carribean tu pun ada. haha.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

everytime i listen to this song.... i feel so..


I just simply love this song! I just cant describe how soothing this song is especially the original version. I can listen to it again and again and again and again. This is my fav song for 2009. Love it. emm... emm... T_T



Come home

by One Republic


Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn

There’s someone
I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me

They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..
Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come homeCome home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here


So hear this now
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home


... T_T ...

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

my models

I m trying to find new hobby! Disturbing others via sms seems to be not well accepted anymore. To break the boredom, I looked around the house, there--there.. I found my new hobby. I m going to open a modelling agency and photography. Well.. it is not new actually, since I have been doing it since I got hold to Cik Non! But I have never used this kind of models before. So here it is... feast your eyes.. Introducing my models... Dolly, Ciki and Owh!!



Portfolio: Dolly




Type: Kucing kampung

Gender: Female

Background: Was found sick by the roadside. My sister picked it up and took care of it! She was pregnant once but, her babies died in her small tummy. Doctor said she would have problem to get pregnant in the future, so... she had to be... kasi!. Sad, but it is for her own good. She has serious look which can make her on the same list as Tyra Banks. She is so versatile. Great on catwalk!



Portfolio: Ciki








Type: Siamese cat

Gender: female

Background: Found straying at my sister's office. It was said that it belonged to an Indian family but they dont need her anymore. My sister picked her up and took her home. She rarely speaks. She would just observed, and listens attentively. Good on couture and high class fashion.


Portfolio: Owh!










Type: Stray cat

Gender: Female

Background: Was found 'crying' near the office. was picked up and fed by Iedora and Jaja. They will take care of her. She is still young and further exposure needed. Good when young model is needed


Here are some of their poses for note cards.











Thursday, January 7, 2010

Juara Lagu...





Juara Lagu hujung minggu ni. Walaupun aku tak ikut sangat, tapi aku nak tengok jugak la siapa akan menang. Dulu masa kat UITM aku rajin la gak pi ke Alam Sentral, berebut2 just nak tngk juara lagu. Skrng ni dah tua kot, last year yang kat TV pun aku tak tengok sedangkan kalau tak silap aku masa tu aku kat Malaysia. Aku jeling jeling je. Tahun ni aku rasa nak tengok lah. Bukan apa, si Cipol tu suka sangat ke juara lagu tu. Walaupun dia tak dengar lagu Malaysia (kononnya! ) tapi dia nak juga tunggu juara lagu. Tapi biasala, dia tu music apapun kalau campak kat dia, dia akan layan. Cumanya dia suka atau tidak je. kalau di dah kata tak suka, sampai bila2 pun dia tak suka!

Aku pun tak tahu sapa yang masuk AJL tahun ni. dengar2 nya saingan hebat. So tadi, dalam keboringan, pastu dok tgk iklan kat TV3 plak, so aku pun cari la pasal AJL ni. tahun ni dah takde mcm selalu. dulu kan ke ada banyak kategori. Etnik kretif la, irama malaysia la, balada la etc. Tapi tahun ni semua di lambakkan jadi satu! masa aku study dulu aku target irama Malaysia ngan balada je. sebab ada SITI. Pop Rock tak le aku minat sangat! tapi bila dah tua2 ni, dah kearah rock la plak. hehe. ok.. ni ialah senarai yang akan bertanding :





Dan Sebenarnya – Yuna (komposer/penulis lirik: Yuna, Paan, Efry, Adil)








Rindu Terhenti – Tomok (komposer: Aubrey Suwito, penulis lirik: Tinta)







Pakai Buang – Stacy (komposer/penulis lirik: Edry)








Cinta Adam Dan Hawa – Misha Omar (komposer: Azmeer, penulis lirik: Allahyarham Loloq)










Aku Skandal – Hujan (komposer/penulis lirik: Noh)









Masih Jelas – Hafiz (komposer: Aidit Alfian, penulis lirik: Ad Samad)











Situasi – Bunkface (komposer/penulis lirik: Sam)









Bencinta – Faizal Tahir (komposer: Audi Mok, penulis lirik: Faizal Tahir)














Aurora – Estranged (komposer/penulis lirik: Estranged)















Aku Rindu Sayang Kamu – Black (komposer/penulis lirik: Yuzai)










Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang – Alyah (komposer: Ajai, penulis lirik: Habsah Hassan)













Bengang – Akim (komposer: Amir, penulis lirik: Sheikh Qalam)













Kau Aku – Aizat (komposer/penulis lirik: Aizat)

Pergi – Aizat (komposer/penulis lirik: Pete Teo)





So mari kita lihat, siapa yang kena.. cipol! kamu mahu bet kah? haha

huhu... rajin sungguh aku membuat benda ni....

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Hate......?

I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

hurt!



It hurts so bad
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i am alone...
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that hurts even more!






pain pain go away!
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and I STILL miss you so!

What happened last night?



It has never happened before. I went to bed at 930pm. I guess i m so tired. I couldn't care less to what had happened around me. After a nice hot dinner, I crawled to bed. However i did wake up several times. I thought once I wake up, the pain would go away, but.. nah! it is still there.

I woke up around 645 today! And I managed to come to work just on time. 800 sharp! hmm.. What is wrong with me! What should i do next! I thought I would feel better today, but... no! I m still the same. I yawned several times just within 1 hour.. There there! I yawn again!

And.. i still miss you!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Masseur please!





THis is another problem that I have. My back is killing me, especially today! What is wrong with me? I m planning to go to gym but I m so sure that if my back pain is still there, it would get worse!. So I better not!

I miss gym for 2 weeks now. All because of my back pain. My gym instructor would ask me why I didnt attend the usual session, my answer was simple, busy. Actually my back is causing me problem. I m thinking of buying a special pillow to support my back to ease the pain. I m thinking of going for a massage, but my past experience would hinder me of doing so. How I wish Abang Man and his father, pak habib, (my usual traditional masseur in Ipoh) stay somewhere here, i mean in penang. If I want to be massaged, I have to go to Ipoh! Gosh! It would further cause me back pain! hmm... what should I go! I want to try acupuncture. Is it advisable for me to do so? hmm

I went to see a doctor, and he said, it is because of my poor back! I dont really stand straight. I would slouch all the time. Blame it to my primary school back! I had to carry them from school. I had sometimes to walk home for nearly 30 mins. So who to blame? hmm... ouch! I need to rest! My back is really.. Really .. REALLY killing me. Anybody can lend me a helping hand?